i haven’t written a post in two months.
since my last post, i’ve managed to keep my weight at roughly 250 pounds. i’ve been keeping up with my running, going as far as running for an hour (thanks, podrunner!), but i’ve been eating a lot as well. as a result, i haven’t really lost any weight. (and if the scale is right, i might have gained some back!!! nooo!) also, i’ve been running less and less over the past few weeks, going from four times a week (my peak) to three to two to … well, you get it.
i’ve been thinking about the reasons why i’ve stagnated or regressed. what i’ve come up with isn’t a comprehensive inventory of excuses, but a shopping list of little things, little distractions that add up like fractions. as i was working on this list, i realized that most of these were the reasons i had gotten as big as 290 in the first place.
anyway, here’s that list:
success. yup, my great success with weight loss (forty pounds, for crying out loud! one size smaller pants!!!) brought about a sense of satisfaction in me. when people started noticing me lose my first 20, i shrugged it off, as i had lost 20 before but gained it back. when i reached 40, however, i was high-fiving everyone i knew.
failure. i also experienced some discouragement since then. not from my weight loss, but from other aspects in my life. failure is normal, yes, but sometimes discouragement’s first victim is the areas where i’m most successful.
the season and the weather. i hate daytime in the summer. it’s way too hot to run, way too hot to do anything. the heat is depressing and demotivating.
laziness. a vice of mine. this spills over onto other aspects as well.
boredom. i’ve found that a cause of this is a lack of new challenges. ever since i ran for an hour, i’ve been running less and less. my jump rope broke and i’ve yet to replace it, and weightlifting is monotonous and tedious.
the “balance”. i’ve been getting busier at work, and trying to keep my eating right and fitting in time to exercise is a tougher challenge than i initially thought it would be.
going at it alone. while i do prefer exercising on my own, it’s been tough keeping my routine going, especially when i haven’t been talking about my weight loss and not getting any feedback from my peers.
anyway, stagnancy, like success, isn’t something achieved or attained. it just happens. hopefully, knowing the reasons why i stagnate could help me get my passion back for this little project of mine.
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