reason #1: because i’m 25 and i want to be alive.
as of writing this, it’s been 2 hours since i woke up. i’ve had my first meal (oatmeal with a hint of sugar-free maple syrup) and i’ve walked to the supermarket to buy a LOT of fruits and greens. i’m still lacking a bit of sleep, but i figure i can sleep earlier tonight. my throat doesn’t hurt as much as it did yesterday, and i’m actually feeling … sober and alert. alert, considering i gave the cashier at Pavilion’s my Ralph’s club card instead of my Vons card. not bad, i suppose.
this is a blog about my weight loss.
this time around, though, i’ve got a circle of friends who are going through the same regiment with me. something like “the biggest loser.” a bunch of friends from church who have varying reasons why they want to lose weight or get fit. so for the first time ever, i have a support group. we’re meeting tonight to walk to a local park with a track on it.
this’ll sound trite and there’s no way around it, but i think surrounding myself with positive, motivated people will help me. i’ve tried losing weight over the years and i’ve always found myself giving up for whatever reason. these little defeats add up like fractions and have resulted in a defeatist and cynical attitude in me. fragments of this defeatism and skepticism are even popping up in my head as i type this.
i told them, i need someone to call in case one of these days i lose my mind and fall on the floor. i guess i just don’t want to feel alone when i’m struggling with myself.
i’m writing this blog because i feel like it’s something worth telling. something worth sharing to my friends, and anyone else who cares to read.
if you’re a friend, please support me in this. if you’re of the praying kind, please pray for me.
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